it's almost year since I lost my dad. It's hard to believe not so long ago I received a call from him 2 weeks prior to his death, still can't craps that would be the last time I hear his voice. I've gone through the day my father passed on thousand times and thought about what I would have done differently. Before he passed on he meet with my mother and she told me he spoke briefly about me, how he need to make time to talk to me(pity I was miles and miles away). It kills me that I never got the chance to have that father-daughter moment before he left us. I had to settle for a call and that was never enough, it could never be enough.
Growing up my dad wasn't around therefore I never had that close relationship with him nevertheless he was my father. We would meet and talk sometimes you know... but I never really gave myself enough time to try and reach out to him as many time as I could. Losing him last year affected me so much in many ways I wouldn't be able to express enough in words. I am left with so many an answered questions that only him could answer. I miss him very much and they hasn't been a day that I don't think about him. My birthday is approaching in a Months time and I don't know how to feel about it, I have so many mixed emotions, see he was buried on my birthday and now my birthday will always be a remind that he is gone. Still remember it like it was yesterday and my heart hasn't made peace with the fact that he is gone forever. It still hurt a lot. I pray one day I will be able to make peace with it. I love him very much and I regrets not telling him these words everyday am now only comforted by that at least he is in the better place. Happy.
Losing a parent, your flesh and blood is one of the worst thing you will ever experience. It's an unbearable pain that with hope that with time the pain will soon SIMMER, but it's never really goes away. It's not easy but with support and a lot of tears, you will get through it.
Regards,
Ms_Mavundla
Growing up my dad wasn't around therefore I never had that close relationship with him nevertheless he was my father. We would meet and talk sometimes you know... but I never really gave myself enough time to try and reach out to him as many time as I could. Losing him last year affected me so much in many ways I wouldn't be able to express enough in words. I am left with so many an answered questions that only him could answer. I miss him very much and they hasn't been a day that I don't think about him. My birthday is approaching in a Months time and I don't know how to feel about it, I have so many mixed emotions, see he was buried on my birthday and now my birthday will always be a remind that he is gone. Still remember it like it was yesterday and my heart hasn't made peace with the fact that he is gone forever. It still hurt a lot. I pray one day I will be able to make peace with it. I love him very much and I regrets not telling him these words everyday am now only comforted by that at least he is in the better place. Happy.
Losing a parent, your flesh and blood is one of the worst thing you will ever experience. It's an unbearable pain that with hope that with time the pain will soon SIMMER, but it's never really goes away. It's not easy but with support and a lot of tears, you will get through it.
Regards,
Ms_Mavundla